I’m 24.
I’m at the airport.
And I’m moving to India.
At the airport in the international terminal there are so many languages being spoken, so many differences to observe. It reminds me how big the world is. It’s easy to forget, especially when the world, as it sometimes does, revolves around you. It’s one of the wonderful things about travelling. One of many. You are part of something bigger than yourself. Bigger than your concerns or worries or joys or problems. Our lives are important, incredibly so, of course. But so are the lives of others – our families, friends, neighbors, and those strangers on the other side of the world. College graduates are forced to decide what it is we want to do with our lives. And the answer is so much bigger than the job - that’s just one facet. It’s about how we lead our lives. It’s about what we choose as important – what values, what choices, what guidelines, what relationships matter. The answers are personal. I believe I know what matters and what’s important to me. It’s constantly evolving, but whatever it is, it’s lead me to here. Right now. Witnessing my own microcosm of multiculturalism in the international airport terminal. Moving to India.
It’s difficult to answer exactly why I’m doing this, and the reasons are many and involved. But as I get served pretzels and wine on the airplane, I think about how luxurious my life is. I have everything I could possible need and a thousand times more. I’m not trying to run away from it, but I am attempting to remove myself so that I can better understand the world and the problems that need to be solved. I want to understand through experiences; statistics can only convey so much. I know that ultimately it will be me who gets the most out of this volunteer work, but hopefully along the way I can do some good for others.
* Postscript 7/29/09
I think my brother put it best when he said in response to this post, "Don't you think you're being a little dramatic, Jamie?" He's right. And even though I'm a tad embarassed, it remains since it's pretty much exactly what I was thinking and feeling at the time. Historical accuracy trumps chagrin.
Great first post! (and pretty colour scheme too)
ReplyDeleteairports do strange things to people's emotions...so does leaving austin; i found myself in concourse c crying into the fracano's cupcake jacob had packed for me. hows that's for tragic alliteration?
ReplyDeletei needed to leave austin and the people there in order to realize how much i love it and them, so i think this will be good for you for that reason, amongst many, however painful it might be. when it gets really hard or lonely, remember that time is a funny thing, and most of our sorrows spring from a deceptive belief in and attachment to permanence. there's no panacea, and sometimes a good cry followed by a bollywood flick is the best medicine.
i'm disappointed that we did not see each other more over the break, but we were both quite occupied grasping onto our remaining time, i'm sure. i hope to stay in touch, and besides, we will both be back in texas before we know it.
jamestown is so poetic and insightful
ReplyDeleteI love your first post! And your blog is so pretty :) Great writing, and I look forward to more. You rock, I'm already impressed by what you're about to do.
ReplyDeletewow Jamie you are a poet of emotion. I have read it 3 times now because it almost sounded like you were speaking "Jamish" I loved it - so excited to read the novel! haha love you KISMET
ReplyDeleteWe miss you already at Creative Suitcase. Sometimes I got lonely living in Australia - even in a country where I moved with a friend and where I could understand most everyone around me. It just happens. When it did, I tried to find comfort in the little differences. Hope this happens for you too.
ReplyDeleteEnjoy your time there and keep us updated!